March 1st marked the 6 year anniversary of the day our little boy entered and exited our presence. His only mission here on earth was to receive a body. What a valiant spirit he must be! I am so honored that I was able to help give him the only thing he needed and that I am able to call him my son.
That is not to say that this experience came without pain. It hurts to bury a child. I didn't like it one bit. It also was the moment that I realized that Heavenly Father was in control and I wasn't. What a hard lesson for me.
Although the rest of the world did not know him I had 8 months of joy, getting to experience him growing and moving and feeling that bond that a mother and her unborn child get to. He was very much alive to me! How I cherish those last days of listening to his heart beat, and feeling each and every move.
I believe that he would have loved to stay here on earth with his family, but knew of the good he could do on the other side. And I KNOW that although I cannot see him, his spirit is very much alive doing important work that he could only do from there.
I am thankful for the experience, I am thankful that my family and I have something to work towards and I am thankful that I have the knowledge that I will see him again. 
7 comments:
Sister...you made me cry. I sure do love you! You are an amazing person - don't ever forget that. Thanks for being such a great example!
Wow, I had no idea. It would be hard to lose a child at any age. What a great perspective you have on what happened.
Oh Courtney, what a sweet post. I can only imagine how difficult that was for you, and still is, I'm sure. You are amazing!! Your testimony has touched me deeply. Love ya!!
Your post was amazing... I cried all over again! I can't believe it's been that long already. We love you guys!
I was just thinking about your little guy adn your family yesterday as I took my mom thru the cemtery adn to visit my dad's headstone. You are so much stronger than I would ever be.
Hi I'm Kami and I'm friends with Katie Jo. She told me about your blog. I have a similiar situation May 31, 2010. If you feel ok about it I was wondering if you could email me and tell me about your situation and I will tell you mine.
kami_ruskan@yahoo.com
Of course I'm a year almost to the date late to comment but I thought it interesting that I haven't checked your blog in so long and this is what I read. What a loving tribute to your special little boy! I think he chose an amazing family to come to and one day you will have the honor of raising him. You ARE an amazing woman. Love you girl! <3
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