Saturday, May 7, 2011

Better than I had

First of all let me explain that this is not a pity party on my childhood.  I had very good parents who did the best they knew how to and could at the time.  With that being said, I want better for my children.  I think we all do in one way or another. 
I am not a perfect mother.  I don't claim to be.  But when it's said and done, I want my kids to think they had the best mom ever.
That is why I do what I do, second guess everything, and push through even when I want to throw the towel in, curl into a ball and call it quits. 
I want my children to have good...no.... great self esteem.  To be leaders and confident enough to take chances, or push through when the whole world is beating them down. To love themselves even if it feels like no one else does.  To know of their value as a son or daughter of God and to know their worth.
I want my children to have a strong spiritual foundation.  To know that there really is a God who loves them unconditionally, who wants what is best for them.  For them to be able to trust him ALWAYS and have faith in him.  To have a relationship with him, talk to him, and have a desire to follow him, knowing it will bring them true peace and happiness.
I want my children to have opportunities.  To be able to see things and experience life; find what they love and do what excites them.  I want them to have every opportunity to excel and become the best they can be at something.
I want my children to feel nurtured and unconditional love from me.  (Maybe the most important on my list)  I want my kids to know they were the most important thing to me.  To know that their lives and happiness were top priority to me.  To never feel like they took a back seat to my needs or wants.  To know I have their back 100% of the time and that no matter what I love them ALWAYS.  Not because of who they are or what they do, but because they are my child.